Last update on 26th Nov 2023.
I am a naive, unabashed, and incurable romantic. So you can imagine why I always give it my all when I feel the passion inside.
Dance is THE language that I use for communicating with both myself and others, because the granularity of my emotions is far beyond my oral communication skills. I see the stage as a safe and fair place to show more shades of my personality. With clear boundaries, the stage protects both the dancer and the audience. It creates a space without hierarchy: from the very beginning, everyone knows it will just be a performance. Emotions, feelings, illusions, and everything around it, there is nothing personal. At the end of the day, what happened on the stage will be left on the stage.
I used to play soccer, but recently I have played so few matches that I do not feel comfortable saying that I am an attacking midfielder any more. I was a fan of Argentina, but after the recent World Cup, so many people have suddenly become their fans. The hype makes me shy away, as always. Soccer is a ruthless game, which, I think, is the most charming part. I may win, I may lose, drama may happen. I must accept the fear of uncertainty, then still, decide to be all in. Soccer still means a lot to me, hopefully I can find my way back in the near future. Before that, I will probably continue my adventures on running marathon.
I feel very lucky to work on security & privacy which is a field that aligns with my values. I must admit that I like putting myself into philosophical dilemmas, questioning everything. Before asking “can we do that?”, I always ask myself “should we do that?”. There were, and with high probability will still be, many moments when I do not have a satisfying answer. Still, I think it worthy trying. I see myself as a practical person: I think, then I do things. I also believe that all people will be blamed, which is an unavoidable destiny of human being, for either of the two reasons: they don’t do anything; or they do something, but not perfectly. Personally, I feel more comfortable to take the latter blame.
For people who know me well, writing a blog is so anti-me. Because I am the kind of person who doesn’t really care about the past, just embrace the moment and naively look forward to the future. Any attempt to “log life experience” definitely failed in the end. Therefore, the fate of this blog is somehow pre-defined.
Anyway, let’s see where I can get ;)
"The answer must be in the attempt."